Thursday, September 21, 2006


Some cheaters are in pain as well, sometimes they are the victims, but paying the price TWICE.
Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cuz it seems that wrong
Really loves my company
He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that this sky is blue
But clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true
And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dyin'
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Every time I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...A murderer
I feel it in the air
As I'm doin' my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss up on my cheek
As he reluctantly
Accepts I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well
Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see you dying
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...a murderer
Our Love...his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this anymore ...whoah..anymore
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...a murderer... a murderer... no no no yeah yeah yeah..

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posted by Loura at 4:00 PM | 5 comments
Friday, September 15, 2006

Chili's Molten:
Molten chocolate cake, I sometimes skip my main dish at Chili's just to enjoy my MOLTEN as much as i can, Oh God i cant describe it.. putting off the fire of the burning chocolate with a Huge vanella ice-cream scoop.. all melting in my mouth, WOW.
I LOVE ANYTHING CHOCOLATE, YES I AM A CHOCOHOLIC
specially dipping some strawberries & mashmelon in a chocolate fountain
Some Facts about CHOCOLATE:

Pleasure of consuming chocolatePart of the pleasure of eating chocolate is ascribed to the fact that its melting point is slightly below human body temperature; it melts in the mouth. Chocolate intake has been linked with release of serotonin in the brain, which is thought to produce feelings of pleasure. Research has shown that heroin addicts tend to have an increased liking for chocolate; this may be because it triggers dopamine release in the brain's reinforcement systems – an effect, albeit a legal one, similar to that of opium.

Chocolate as a drugChocolate contains a variety of substances, some of which are addictive (such as caffeine). These include:
Sugar - Chocolate bars (as opposed to cocoa) contain large amounts of sugar.
Caffeine - The chemical present in coffee and tea.
Theobromine - Various theobromines are present.
Anandamide - An endogenous cannabinoid.
Tryptophan - An essential amino acid that is a precursor to Serotonin an important neurotransmitter involved in regulating moods.
Phenylethylamine - An endogenous amphetamine. Often described as a 'love chemical'.

Chocolate is made from the fermented, roasted, and ground beans taken from the pod of the tropical cacao tree, Theobroma cacao, which was native to
Central America and Mexico, discovered by ancient Mayas and Aztecs, but is now cultivated throughout the tropics. The beans have an intensely flavoured bitter taste. The resulting products are known as "chocolate" or, in some parts of the world, cocoa.
Flavours such as
mint, orange, or strawberry are sometimes added to chocolate. Chocolate bars frequently contain added ingredients such as peanuts, nuts, fruit, caramel, or even crisped rice.
Now tell me, WHAT IS YOUR CHOCOLATE?

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posted by Loura at 4:50 PM | 12 comments
Wednesday, September 13, 2006

When i was a lil gurl.. i used to think that am not so pretty.. no one used to tell me so -do tell your kids when you have them that they are so beautiful.. its very important- and so i grew up with that idea.

I bloomed and my beauty became obvious to all but myself, i used to be shocked when someone flatters me: Oh is he talkin to me -checkin my back if there's someone else worth flattring- e7em.. its me, blushing.. dreaming of that guy who found me attractive, bleh bleh..

I realized am pretty, mom realzed this 2, and once we were in a restaurant.. she looked at me that indescribable look, sadness melted in.. i dont really know how to explain it.. was terrifying me, she sighs: be aware of this: BEAUTY ISNT ALWAYS A BLESS.

Now, i know what mama meant, most of "BELLAs" arent happy. Most feel lonely and desperate, they arent satisfied on their romantic life and most are heart broken.. thats why some of them end their own lives.
Yes am lonely most of the time.. i have no much friends, though am friendly and fun, i spend most of the weekends getting a skimed late' from nearest starbucks cafe ALONE.

Romantic side.. MY RIGHTS TO HAVE ROMANCE IN MY LIFE ARE TAKEN. Plz dont ask for explanation. But am fine now dont worry.
IS IT THE BEAUTY TO BE BLAMED!!

By the way.. am not saying here am so pretty.. am an average.

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posted by Loura at 5:29 PM | 6 comments
Monday, September 11, 2006

Sometimes, when i sit alone, i remember my stupid old days behavior (as if am 57 lol), yes i was a stupid gurl with the most irrational attitude ever.. doing whatever i wanted to do, whenever i wanted to.. i was breaking every rule.. was risking everything i had.. thinking of nothing else, but my PLEASURE.
"WHAT I DID WAS BEYOND THE BOUNDS OF ACCEPTABLE BEHAVIOR"

Ofcourse, consequences were disaster, embarrassing myself infront of others.. causing myself painful circumstances.. feeling guilty most of the time
(HEY WAIT.. i wasn't that bad :P)

YET

Everytime i recall those memories, i laugh and laugh till i sometimes cry. Gosh, i was so CARELESS.. FEARLESS.. and damn DARING..
And only because of these features, i reached the extreme joyfulness zone, and i lived the happiest days of my life.. the taste of that pleasure mixed with excitement was so special and unique.

So in fact i shouldnt regret it, but keep it and smile.
You'll never know what is happiness if there was no sorrow.

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posted by Loura at 5:16 PM | 8 comments